Much better!

I feel much better today. J.

I have a bad bruise type ache in my sternum though making it v uncomfortable to get out of bed or a chair. I think it is caused by the large amount of fluid pressing on my lungs. Will see consultant fri.

Ive borrowed an electric under mattress lifter like they have in hospitals, which helps lots. 

I didn’t manage to go to lunch with the 6 girls last week :-(.  Darn - I left the house walked a hundred yards, sat for a rest on a tree trunk, and realised I wasn’t well enough. But one is coming to visit me tomorrow. Cool, huh J

I’m trying to discipline myself to do some more painting, but keep finding excuses not to.  Being not good at it, and seeing it not turn out how I want is very frustrating which makes it stressful to start.

For example, I did a charcoal drawing of an attractive girl I know. The result was a good likeness, but it made her look really old and not good looking. I don’t have the insight to see what is wrong with it. 

 It’s my 54^th birthday on Thursday Oct 15^th. I usually ignore birthdays, but decided I might as well use it as an excuse to go out.  Thursday will be a carvery meal with Mum, Dad, kids, brother, kids. In the local pub. At 3.50ukp for  huge portionsBeef, Ham, turkey, and as much Veg as you can eat, it is both the cheapest and the best food around. The only reason that we don’t go there more often is that it is the same food every time.  

On Friday it will be a lad’s night out, celebrating with friends. Another steak meal in town.  I’ve made it clear to all that I will be going home early, about 9.30, as being ill, I get worn out after that. It’ll be nice though.

Two of my friends haven’t spoken to each other for 10 years and I sense there is some kind of tension between them. I don’t know what it is and don’t want to get involved.

… but it’ll be interesting if they both can make it.

 I was necessarily rude personal talking to Mom earlier. Her back is starting to  bend a little.  I explained that she looks good, but will look terrible if she becomes hunched, so she must see her doctor and ask him about a back support to keep it straight.

The shock of me being so direct must’ve done the trick. She made an appointment straight away.  deed well done!